Monday, 28 October 2013

A Discussion Of the Short Narrative (Thoughts)

What can be said about the short narrative, no matter the form? As a writer I live within the confinements of the short narrative, be it poetry, short stories, short essays, or even my to-often Facebook status updates. Indeed the world I am confined within, the world I have grown in many respects to abhor, has given rise to my own appreciation of the short narrative form. I am a creation of my environment no matter how hard I attempt to fight it. I live my literary potential within the power of two doubled spaced pages.  
Recently Alice Munro won the Nobel Prize in Literature, cited as a "master of the contemporary short story." The short narrative form, through never maligned and highly respected, rarely gets the respect it deserves. It doesn't hold the magical artistic appeal of the "Great" all encompassing novel. Such novels, be it War and Peace or the the more modern Infinite Jest, hold a grandeur on the minds of writers and readers alike. Lovers of literature wish to delve and tackle the magnum opus for it promises greatness, perhaps a shrivel of truth that we can keep warm under our pillows and hold till we breath our last breath and utter our last unmemorable utterance. Yet the short narrative form has proven to become increasingly useful and meaningful, holding as many "truths" as the magnum opus we all wish to read and/or write. 
The power and struggle of the short narrative is the need to speak with as little as possible, to say great things with the minimalism of a deep seeded epiphany. The world has began to ask for this tiny miracle more often than ever before. With a world of information, I site exhibit A the internet, there seems to be a greater need for a reductionist soul, someone able to encompass an entire thought in a sentence; some are more than able to expound upon such wit. The comedians that control and bring insight to Twitter, the world of 140 characters (what an absurd length for such as myself), have shown they can bring forth and encapsulate the absurdities and fallacious elements of humanity with the freedom and bravery (perhaps stupidity) of an iconoclastic Jester. So why are we still clinging to that magnum opus, does it hang upon our neck like an albatross cursing us as it did the ancient mariner?
Perhaps not. I cannot say that I have the focus of my predecessors, lord knows I am unable to focus on my own writing past two pages, as I have mentioned before, but does that mean that my entire generation is cursed as I? With the attention and memory span of a goldfish but the intelligence and material resources of all past generations combined? When the "written word" was first invented the Greeks debated on the price of such a tool, as simple as it may seem to us, and they worried that memory, a tool used to tell great and all encompassing stories such as the Iliad, would be lost and what would that mean for humanity? The debaters and maligners of writing proved prophetic for we do not possess such memorial powers but we have gained the ability to understand and comprehend more conceptual realities than ever before, drowning in our present digital sea while often ignoring the perils of "surfing" the network of seemingly infinite websites overflowing with information and opinions at our fingertips. 
Yet our humanity has not changed, the great magnum opus was respected (though for them it was the epic poem), and the short narrative form was left at the wayside, known to be beautiful, profound, and sadly un-idealized and under utilized. That doesn't change though that to say so much without seeming cumbersome or to say so little without seemings uninspired are the struggles that every writer, musician, poet, painter, artist and conveyer of reality share. They share in the struggle if not in the majesty. 

What Path Would You Choose?

White noise. All I hear is white noise from white voices who wear white shirts and shoes and who drink white wine from white chalices. White. Its post-translucent qualities add a cold nuance to the perpetually disinfected and hygienic lives I am caught in. White. All my friends are white and all my enemies are white. Everything is write, monochromatic. When I wake and open my eyes from the only darkness I am able to envision I feel the sharp pain of sharpness behind my eyeballs when gazing upon the clearness of white that perpetually surounds me. How long have I been here? How long will I stay? Did I come here on my accord? All unanswerable questions. I know we could find some form of unit to expound on the idea of time but when units can be infinitely divided or expanded it doesn't mean a fucking thing, I don't know how to answer any of my questions. 
Today is like any other day. I wake and remove myself from clean and crisp bed sheets which are barely tussled by my pre-comatose sleep. I wear equally clean and crisp bed attire, looking as if I am another piece of matching furniture in my room. If I stood infinitely still I would slowly meld into the background. I could picture a family walking through my home, seeing if they wished to purchase the medium sized condo, and failing to notice the young man standing perfectly still. Perhaps a lamp shade on my head would help complete the scene. 
I would carefully walk to my bathroom and turn on the tap and wash my face with the translucent water which escapes in a less than impressive torrent of streaming sound. From there I would leave my room into my kitchen and ingest my white plain eggs on white bread toast and perhaps, if I am feeling adventurous and in need of some stimulation, watch some television. Perhaps I would watch the news in order to remind myself how un-terrible my life was. The perpetual boredom was a firm and strong ideal compared to the terribleness of war, famine and disease. 
My mouth would move mechanically as I ate my barely organic food. The crunch of bread unsurprisingly acted as the soul human sound in the home, emitting a sadness which can only be possible when human actions are done robotically. Then a break would emerge from the pathetic existence when I would take part in the only pleasure of the morning, the yolk of my egg. The yellowness which emitted my light would break from its thin and frail mould and spill forth. I would greedily suck on the edge of the egg making sure every aspect of that yellow orgasm enters my oral cavity and allows a shiver of palette encompassing joy leak through my frigid and calculated body. The warmth of it would set me free for a few moments and I would close my eyes, once again incapsulated by the beautiful colourlessness of darkness and let the only instance of joy cling for as long as is humanly needed. Than the moment would end and I would clean my single plate, wipe down the counter, and clean myself in white, brush my teeth in white and lick my lips to whiteness. 

I am a 20 to 30 white male, I am intelligent and I am socially awkward. I am the most monstrous demographic in the world, the most likely to be a serial killer and numerous other horrifying characters in the world. I am also incredibly pathetic and meticulously structured in my existence. I have two paths laid before me, the coldness of my white existence or the path towards monstrous anonymity. What path would you ultimately choose?  

Monday, 30 September 2013

The Place I call Home (A Poem)


The Place I call Home 

Neon glow of a street lamp reflecting on the damp pavement 
Cars driving by late at night breaking the silent restless air 
Clicking heels exasperating the emptiness and darkness
Windows lit by dull florescent bulbs hanging aimlessly 
This is where I call home and this is where I find my life 

dawn hints on the horizon a future date filled with hopes 
Only to be regained by the grips of dusk once again 
The cold rain falls upon the faces of sinned and sinner
Transgressions meaning little to ridged and stoned lives 

The paint peeling off age worn walls covered in scratches 
Sparse furniture dotting a glowing coffin of an apartment
Cold wooden floors covered in splintered ragged flaws 
They seem to symbolize my simplistically docile existence   

Loud appliances initiate a space of sound among shy reality 
Humming angrily as if to protest the squalor that permeates
Each corner a home for shadows and other vague concepts 
A dripping sink adding rhythm among a patternless orchestra 

Raise ones head and you can see the spotted stains above 
telling a story willing to evoke bitter and mirthless laughter  
Cracks spidering across an endless sea of greying white paint
Reminiscent of the worn and aged skin of a toiling farmer 

The window glares as light slowly scatters through stained glass
Images of cultists taking their lives within such light reels  
Slightly blurred images and a rocking unsteady camcorder
Catching the final moments of mentally deranged beings 

The moon shines mercilessly upon the reflective street below 
Its not that I think I can escape the reality I have set upon 
Its all about perspective and deeply intwined imagination 
Within a shadowy and ghostly place I still call my home 
  
  


     

Monday, 23 September 2013

Words (Thoughts)


The power and the meaninglessness of words perfectly epitomizes the contradictory nature of all human constructs. I attempt to use my knowledge and artistic sensibilities to build a structure of words which can convey abstract ideals into concrete creations within you. I have a friend who is struggling with internal and external misfortunes and I try desperately to use my words to help ease her struggle. The poor truth of geography we share has forced me to hold unto the power of my words to affect her life in a positive manner ya bish? But no, she doesn't understand for the power I am trying to convey through the wonders of a shrinking and continuously globalized world lies within herself and not within myself. I am attempting to pro-ject words that bring forth great emotions within me to repeat the feat within her, I am attempting to universalize a subjective truth through the hope of convincing her that her subjective truth is also my own, such minimizing and retracting the power of our individuality.

There is undoubtedly overlap that will occur. The power of art is its ability to burrow deep within its receiver, unearthing great truths that we had not realized existed. At the moment I am listening to a piece by Kendrick Lamar called Money Trees, a song that takes a hard and constructive look at the gang banging culture that exists within L.A. and other major North American metropolises, truths that occur because of racist economics and "the weight of history"; the term has just procured a few chuckles from myself, the context for which is completely subjective and plagiaristic in nature. What I am trying to say is that I am a white middle class male who by the very essence of his birthing was given a life in which I am free of all the turmoil that a black North American man such as kendrick has faced. Yet, despite the vast chasm between our social, economic, and racial differences I can relate to him. I can take in the power of his words and find a deep seeded emotion which we both share and I am able to let the flow of his ebonic lyrics flow through my soul and conscious mind. We share a basic humanity and a basic language (to an extent).

So I hope, beg, and perhaps pray that the power that kendrick has with words can also be the power I have with words, that I am able to dig deep within the mind and feelings of my friend(s) with the words I am unleashing through the unsubstantiated energies of my mind, fingers, and the social media we have all been dissolved within; that I am able to connect rather than redirect, that I am able to convey rather than refrain and that I am gifted enough to define rather than remind the realities we hold inside ourselves.
 

Saturday, 21 September 2013

Vegetating (A Poem)


Vegetating

A pair of too high to fuck lovers 
Caught in the review mirror 
Star crossed and mind warped 
To the visual sensation of imagination 

Immobilized by societies expectations
Vegetating, basement infused existence
spider in the corner seemingly dazed   
Room illuminated by neon television glow 

"go fuck yourself" resonates within paper walls
Slamming doors, carbon escaping click snap
resounding feet ring poignantly to muttering 
"Asshole" screamed to deaf ears just below

A pair of too high to fuck lovers 
Caught in the review mirror 
Star crossed and mind warped 
To the visual sensation of imagination 

Flashing images invoking minimal response 
Sound receiving no attention of the mind 
Eyes filmed over, absent of emotional regret
"Fuck boy, get off that fucking couch, you shit!" 

A pair of too high to fuck lovers 
Caught in the review mirror 
Star crossed and mind warped 
To the visual sensation of imagination 

Untitled #2 (A Poem)


Untitled # 2

Home alone, no where to go 
surrounded by, I don't even know 
I can't help think, I will fade 
enjoyment of life, oddly frayed 

I like to read, bout coming of age 
It reminds me, I turn the page 
if I fail, I'll survive my cage 
I'll glance to my gas gauge 

my car will run out of gas 
 between god, going to mass 
 the feeling of human beings 
I hate sensation, always fleeing 

how scary can death really be 
when you live, without seeing 
people you love, those that weep 
 your soul, not meant to keep

walk on down, the city streets 
find a coin, a couple of seats 
it won't take long, before you find 
everything ends, before your time  

that funny show and that great cd 
filled with scenes on that fav dvd 
I pack my bags to go to the bar 
I find her with another pair of arms 

Its funny, we love organic things 
we want something we can cling 
a way to kill time, before it kills us 
a way of saying, that life is a fuss 

So here I am, alone and sad 
 tragic ideas, life can go bad 
 I realized that it was a dream 
living within popular themes 

I existed inside another play 
a work of Shakespearean dismay 
 inside a mans simple mind 
its funny how I can't control rewind  

Seducing Sleep (A Poem)


Seducing Sleep 

Time slows down, if for a moment
I now know what you had meant
(When you said take me)

Locked inside our loving embrace 
Focused only on one another
(Eyes widen with movement)  

Each breath rasps in perfect unison
Each muscle works for one intent 
Our souls intwine our bodies 

We become joined in those minutes
Forgetting that the world exists 
(My point becomes your eyes)

Our skin seems to melts to become one
Our souls seem to morph into our love
(I need you as much as you need me) 

It all ends in a climatic understanding
Time stops and then moves faster
(Our energy seeps away with the night)

We will never be able to turn back
The connection has been created
(Its time to rest and let sleep seduce)